Thursday, October 28, 2010

I'm Movin' On

by Marvin Kent (Sept 16, 2010)


I've been trapped with my past and I find myself so coward to face the present and to feel the sharpness of reality. First, I tried to fixed things but every actions being done is pointless. That thought was a mistake, it was too late for me to see the bigger picture that nothing was broken, and the truth is, I've lost someone. Someone that I considered as a friend, a lover, a companion, and a partner. So then, I tried looking anywhere, but still, I was not successful. Well, I'm starting to believed that how can I find that someone if that person has no intention to be found and be claimed.

Time has passed and I've learned to accept it. It was very painful but it was the only way for me step a little forward in my hopes. I thought that “time” itself would be helpful and would heal my wounds but “time” is not in my side. Loneliness and longing was still there, even the face of the ghost I chased was already forgotten. It was by then, a personal testimony that emotions, feelings are far greater than logic.

I am no longer expecting to find what I’ve lost or waiting to the resolution of the unanswered questions. My boredom leads me to what you call closure. It was a dead end already, and that kind of gesture or closure should have done a long time ago.  

Maybe there was a denial but acceptance was really a long process. And on that process, I’ve learned that the key for me to move on is to decide, that I should put an end on it. Pushing the button or just click enter was the gesture that I missed for more than three years.

I understand that there was no resolution on both parties but there forgiveness on my side was achieved after clicking that big red push-button. Then, I’m moving on.

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After the said closure, I find this song from Rascal Flatts fits my current situation and recovery.

(disclaimer: This one of my fave song from Rascal Flatts)

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself 
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long

I'm movin' on
 I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different, but they're always the same
They mean me no harm, but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong

I'm movin' on
I'm moving on

At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarentees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I've sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should, but lived like I shouldn't I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

Ready the bonfire. It's Halloween time!

by Marvin Bandibas

Halloween is indeed a worldly celebration in our current time. It was originally celebrated in Celtic region, and annually observed largely in US, UK and Canada then other countries begun its sort of adaptation.

Halloween is also associated with Christian’s holiday also known as All-Saint’s Day and the Irish old folklore festival of Samhain.  All-Saint’s day is Christians way of paying respect and remembering the memory of the lost love one’s through prayers and divinity. However, in this festival of Samhain, a cleansing ritual was followed and bonfire and slaughtered livestock played a significant part.  Around 16th century, the word Halloween was knowingly uttered when some Scottish nomads observed such tradition of divinity during the evening before the All Days of Hallows.

Like other occasions, if you want to have an extravagant and imagery Halloween party, then here are some themes that you may reconsider, the themes of death, devil, evil, cults, Gregorian outfit, magic, mythical beings, or scary monsters, witches, werewolves, vampires, and ghosts.

How secular this event? These are the common ways in celebrating cheerful Halloween…

telling ghost stories
sharing frightening tales
staying at haunted houses
visiting known haunted places
ramping with weird costumes
joining costume parties
dancing under a blood bathe
enjoying ghost trip
ironing the shrouds
seasoning the cauldrons
sewing the costumes
preparing the tricks
preparing the treats
dusting the skeletons
letting out the ghost
lighting the jack-o-lanterns
sharpening wooden stakes
shooing away the bats
reanimating the dead
igniting the bonfire at the barn
imagining prank stunts
inviting the witches
dipping the apples
carving pumpkins
hanging garlic
steeping over black cats
cleaning the graves
partying in the cemetery
and for boring individuals, they can end up in watching horror movies at home.

Halloween is not as scary as the old days. Most of the Halloween parties were held in the malls, in the office or work place, at the school, at the beach or even outside our lawns. So, who still cares of calling a priest these days? A priest could be a nice addition to the theme.




Celebrating Christmas the Filipino Way


By Marvin Bandibas


On the other side of the world, Thanksgiving Day is the most awaited occasion.  Well in this part of the world, Filipinos here and anywhere all over the world, Christmas season is the most festive and longest occasion. Filipinos start filling the air with Christmas spirit from the first day of September and on the first Sunday of January.

It’s 125 days of warm smiles, 125 days of love and 125 days of fun and excitement.

These are the few ways on how to celebrate 125 days of Christmas; the Filipino way.

embracing the cold breeze
rushing to the malls
wrapping the gifts
retrieving the capiz-lanterns
making a wreath
getting up for Misa de Gallo
pulling out the Christmas tree
setting the nativity barn
caroling on the streets
caroling on the neighborhood
unending smiles
sending the cards
lighting the rice bulbs
strolling at the park
kissing under the plastic mistletoe
juggling the soda crowns
ringing the bells
igniting the bamboo canons
imagining of fireworks
cracking of firecrackers
lit the sparklers
taking pictures with an costumed Santa Clause on the malls
hanging the balls
stepping the ladder
swirling the ribbons
looking at the star on the tree top
waiting for Santa
hanging the stockings
preparing for Noche Buena (Christmas Eve)
collecting round fruits
seasoning of Lechon
slicing of ham
forming the frosted icing
eating candy canes
indulging some ice creams
rolling a Queso de bola
preparing for Medya Noche (New Year’s Eve)
riding the sleigh
tossing the beers
whispering many I LOVE YOU’s
opening a Coke
roasting a turkey
thinking of snow
opening of presents
sipping red wines
spending time with family
attending reunions
hanging around with friends
being friendly to your not so good friends
singing with the choirs
singing "Silent Night"
humming "Holy Night"
remembering baby Jesus


Indeed, it’s the season that is worth waiting for in this part of the world.
Happy Yuletide season everyone!


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